I believed that all we need to do is to think positively.
Give a chance. If not a lot more.
It's all about whether you want or don't want to put in effort into this relationship.
When I was lost back then and knowing that deep down I still want this relationship, you helped to pull me back in. A post that was written back in June 2017: Lost & Found.
Of course, the process was hurting for us but it was worth it cause we get to build more memories together by walking this long path together in this relationship.
All in all, I just want to tell you that it's all in the mind.
I know you need time to sort it out but at the same time, I don't want us to be distanced.
I want to accompany you like how we always hang out together.
By looking into each other's face with that smile on our faces, comforting each other that it will be alright.
I'll be waiting.
Waiting for you to sort out your thoughts and share with me your thoughts too instead of just you trying to understand mine so that we could grow together as one.
Waiting for you to meet me and hang out like we always do again.
All I ask for is to get a chance to show that I really do care about you, about us.
Don't give up on us and let me help you to pull you back in again.
I love you.
Monday, January 21
Thursday, January 17
I told myself that.
Ever since I had a bad relationship, I never would've thought that I could get out of that misery.
The misery of heartache every single day and they said time heals which is obviously a lie cause it didn't help much either.
Every time when I tried to tell the story of how that relationship ended, tears would just flow down my cheeks.
I told myself that if I were to get into another relationship, I will not put 100% in it anymore so that I won't get hurt so badly again.
But then again, who am I lying to? It's hard to not do so.
Especially when that guy made me feel whole again, pulling me out from the misery that I was in.
And now that story does not affect me as that chapter has finally ended.
We started on this new chapter despite the fear I had in the beginning. You were there to encourage me, for us. I appreciate it. In return, I too, do the same for you, for us. But now, I got nothing from your side. Although sometimes you would post something related to me, or even just a call which will make me smile for a day because I know that you care, your constant effort is still needed.
I often read this and tell myself that, maybe it is that "some days" you're having.
But it has been too long...
Giving my 90% isn't enough anymore.
I'm tired... Really tired...
I miss you, I miss us...
Even though I'm tired, I will still try my best to make it 100% again.
I held on for so long because you believed that it will work and I believed it along.
I held on for so long because we decided to walk into this relationship together.
I held on for so long because you never gave up on me when I hid for hours or even up to days when I don't feel like talking about things that made me disappointed.
I held on for so long because we went through all the ups and downs together.
I held on for so long because of all those memories we had and overcame those that were bad.
I held on for so long because every time I read our old conversations on my phone, it made me smile and I feel that it's a love that's worth for me to put an effort in.
I held on for so long because every year when I make the anniversary book, I'm glad that we overcame those difficulties and with that understanding of each other, we make our relationship stronger and believed that we could continue this way till the end of life.
I held on for so long because it will become a regret if I give up.
I hope that you would give some thought about it and with that, you will make an effortless effort on our relationship. Let's make it 100% together, alright?
I love you.
The misery of heartache every single day and they said time heals which is obviously a lie cause it didn't help much either.
Every time when I tried to tell the story of how that relationship ended, tears would just flow down my cheeks.
I told myself that if I were to get into another relationship, I will not put 100% in it anymore so that I won't get hurt so badly again.
But then again, who am I lying to? It's hard to not do so.
Especially when that guy made me feel whole again, pulling me out from the misery that I was in.
And now that story does not affect me as that chapter has finally ended.
We started on this new chapter despite the fear I had in the beginning. You were there to encourage me, for us. I appreciate it. In return, I too, do the same for you, for us. But now, I got nothing from your side. Although sometimes you would post something related to me, or even just a call which will make me smile for a day because I know that you care, your constant effort is still needed.
I often read this and tell myself that, maybe it is that "some days" you're having.
But it has been too long...
Giving my 90% isn't enough anymore.
I'm tired... Really tired...
I miss you, I miss us...
"Before you give up, think about why you held on for so long."
I held on for so long because you believed that it will work and I believed it along.
I held on for so long because we decided to walk into this relationship together.
I held on for so long because you never gave up on me when I hid for hours or even up to days when I don't feel like talking about things that made me disappointed.
I held on for so long because we went through all the ups and downs together.
I held on for so long because of all those memories we had and overcame those that were bad.
I held on for so long because every time I read our old conversations on my phone, it made me smile and I feel that it's a love that's worth for me to put an effort in.
I held on for so long because every year when I make the anniversary book, I'm glad that we overcame those difficulties and with that understanding of each other, we make our relationship stronger and believed that we could continue this way till the end of life.
I held on for so long because it will become a regret if I give up.
I hope that you would give some thought about it and with that, you will make an effortless effort on our relationship. Let's make it 100% together, alright?
I love you.
Tuesday, January 15
Friday, January 4
Seen.
So, your social circle is huge and many people enjoy texting with you.
When you needed help or someone to talk to, I'm here.
When I needed yours, where are you?
You are busy, so do other people.
Sure, I'm already used to the way you disappeared and appearing all the time.
I don't need you to reply when I'm texting nonsense with you.
But please, reply when it requires a reply.
You're old enough to determine which text requires one and which doesn't.
When you needed help or someone to talk to, I'm here.
When I needed yours, where are you?
You are busy, so do other people.
Sure, I'm already used to the way you disappeared and appearing all the time.
I don't need you to reply when I'm texting nonsense with you.
But please, reply when it requires a reply.
You're old enough to determine which text requires one and which doesn't.